領悟

今天早上從睡夢中驚醒(要上廁所)然後發現我腦中playing this song..

領悟 - 辛曉琪

我以為我會哭
但是我沒有
我只是怔怔望著你的腳步
給你我最後的祝福
這何嘗不是一種領悟
讓我把自己看清楚
雖然那無愛的痛苦
將日日夜夜在我靈魂最深處
我以為我會報復
但是我沒有
當我看到我深愛過的男人
竟然像孩子一樣無助
這何嘗不是一種領悟
讓你把自己看清楚
被愛是奢侈的幸福
可惜你從來不在乎
啊！　一段感情就此結束
啊！　一顆心眼看要荒蕪
我們的愛若是錯誤
願你我沒有白白受苦
若曾真心真意付出
就應該滿足
啊！　多麼痛的領悟
你曾是我的全部
只是我回首來時路的每一步
都走的好孤獨
啊！　多麼痛的領悟
你曾是我的全部
只願你掙脫情的枷鎖
愛的束縛
任意追逐
別再為愛受苦

我不想輕易放棄 but why do I find myself writing the final act?

最後我只能選擇做我自己

希望你也是

揮之不去

How do you get rid of the pain that's eroding me inside?

破碎的心知道什麼才是真實的感受嗎?

I Try - Macy Gray

Games, changes and fears
When will they go from here
When will they stop
I believe that fate has brought us here
And we should be together, babe
But we're not
I play it off, but I'm dreaming of you
I'll keep my cool, but I'm feigning

I try to say goodbye and I choke
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
Goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near

I may appear to be free
But I'm just a prisoner of your love
And I may seem all right and smile when you leave
But my smiles are just a front
Just a front, hey
I play it off, but I'm dreaming of you
I'll keep my cool, but I'm feigning

I try to say goodbye and I choke
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
Goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
Here is my confession
May I be your possession
Boy, I need your touch
Your love kisses and such
With all my might I try
But this I can't deny
Deny

I play it off, but I'm dreaming of you (but I'm dreaming of you babe)
I'll keep my cool, but I'm feigningI try to say goodbye and I choke (yeah)
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near (when you are not near aahh)

Goodbye and I choke (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I try to walk away and I stumble (hey, hey, hey)
Though I try to hide it, it's clear (sick of love)
My world crumbles when you are not near (your love, kisses and) Goodbye and I choke (I'm choking)
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near(when you are not there, yeah, yeah yeah)
Yeah, yeah..

Always loved the song and now it's just fitting...

Becareful what you wish for..

我以前曾經wish I can be a love fool, I wanted to go through how it feels like to be a love fool.. now that I am one I guess I can only say becareful what you wish for.. ha ha ha...

It's funny, I broke it off with a girl in pursuing of the above only to become one becoz of her.

Ironic huh...